Goodnight world.
It’s day 2 of being on my own.
My other half moved out this weekend. I’m emotionally spent. Well somewhat spent in someway. I’m tired but my head won’t switch off. I’m managing well. I watched tv. Sprawled through social feeds. Have kept the house relatively tidy. Although did decide to skip a shower tonight and shower in the morning.
I have no idea what my life has in store for me. I’m ok with that. For now. There is little I can do to control that so instead making best use of my energy seems smart.
I’m finally down to 90.8kg, from 97 3 weeks ago. It’s been over 3 years since I saw the zero on the scale. Fingers crossed it keeps up. Strangely I’m a little emotionally numb while I’m silent, which is a new world order for me.
Normally I’m worried about something and I get consumed by it. This time, I’m just me. Just being. Just going through the motions.
I can’t bring myself to open her wardrobe and put anything in it yet. Perhaps mildly in denial. Not sure but just flowing with it.
Good night world. Thank you for looking after me.